So lately guys and relationships seem to be the popular topic. I usually have no problems with this, I still don't have a problem with this. It's just been more heavy on my mind.
God has been speaking to me a lot about this topic as well. Actually He's been more yelling at me to make sure I hear Him. And I have. He has been telling me that he does indeed have my best interest at heart when it comes to guys. He will not leave me alone for the rest of my life. The only thing is that I must wait. I must put my full trust in Him. If I do that, He will bring me the ultimate man. The one that is absolutely perfect for me. And I have told God I'm willing to wait.
But now that I have agreed to wait, God is putting me to the test. Before, guy conversation has been light and I haven't even thought twice about it. However, now I feel like that it is there every time I turn around. And it just makes me want to scream. Everyone is hooking up with somebody. And it just makes me think "what is wrong with me? God am i cursed? am I forever meant to be the third wheel and out of the circle?" I know none of that is true, but is so hard to keep from thinking.
But in these times of temptation, God keeps bringing me back to His word that reminds me that there will be these times of temptation, but He will never tempt me more than I can bear, and He will never leave me without an escape.
I just needed to get this off my chest
2 comments:
ha ha i know about this ;)
you aren't cursed crazy head. i figured i wasn't going to be with anybody until much later in my life. i was astounded that i get to have a boyfriend at this point in my life, and that it gets to be joe roy.
i have to trust God like mad. i guess it'd be easy to think that if you get a boyfriend, then the trusting God is kind of over. nah, the trusting intensifies in another area; the trust to grow the two people together in the relationship, the trust that no matter if good things or bad things happen that you will be happy by yourself.
that's it, really. you gotta know how to be by yourself. that's what it takes to know how to be with somebody. like madea says;
"People have to learn how to be aloonee. I don't understan' all these people, 'Lord, I need somebody. Lord, where muh man.' That is crazy as hell. If you don't know how to be by yoself wutchu gonna do wit somebody else? Stop prayin' bout it - Shut up and WAIT. Go work on you. Hell, that's what that time is fo', to get yoself togetha."
** i don't endorse the use of the word hell, but i do endorse Madea, and it happened to come out of her mouth.**
i know you already know all this. you're smart about it. (:
<3 raquel
ah, yes, girl. I know where you're at. cause I've been there.
...hehe, that quote makes me smile - the one rachel used. and her words are wise and true. take them to heart. and dive into God. Fall in love with Christ. Let him romance you. Like I was talking to you about - I feel like God places these little things into all of our hearts that he uses to romance us, even since we were little. Like you - it's the southern gentleman thing, Kristina's is the stars, mine is the clouds and the sky, Rachel's is mexico. We all have them, they were placed in us. And we are so unique and special and mysterious and totally God's. Completely His.
Rely on Him when things get tough. And when you feel alone, because you're not. And I'm always here if you need to talk! (:
And I personally have a journal specifically for my future husband. It's a pretty cool thing. (:
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